A little actual blogging for a change.
The weather is extremely hot this weekend, in the 90s. There hasn't been much going on. Just the usual I guess. School is seriously over soon. This year seemed like it flew by even though there was so much going on. I barely even remember the beginning of school trying to adjust to everything. Now it just all seems automatic, and I'm not sure if that's necessarily a good thing or not. Life has been bumpy these past few weeks. I'm not really sure what's going on anymore. I'm like getting isolated from everything or maybe I'm just not paying attention.
You know sometimes I just listen to music and when I hear someone call my name I just don't respond on purpose for the sake of talking to them. Don't get me wrong, I mean some of the times I actually cannot hear you, but sometimes, just sometimes I do this. I don't know. I would rather have a 1 on 1 talk with someone rather than you talking to me while one of your friends just sort of listens in. Ehh. Maybe I'm just becoming anti-social. Everyday as I walk to school just barely coming into the classroom as the late bell rings I think to myself about this whole stupid cycle. Wake up. Brush teeth. Wash face. Put on clothes. Eat. Walk to school. Go to classes. Lunch. Classes. End.
Every single stupid day. I hate it. Absolutely hate it. I don't want to be caught up in this boring cycle. I want to switch it up, but how? You can't really...
I just hope my future isn't like that.
And as for you. Yeah you. If noting beyond this makes sense to you, then it isn't directed to you. Don't ask who it is or what I'm talking about. Just be nice and ignore it. Thanks.
I've been trying to talk to you recently. I still feel bad. Don't get mad and irritated with me, it's just my nature okay? Let me feel guilty, it'll wear out. You seem to be the one moving on yourself and not me. You always talk about how I'm the one who's going to find new friends and not talk anymore, but to me it seems like you're the one doing it. I've been trying to talk to you for like the past week, and nothing. Nothing happens. Sometimes no response or anything. I'm not asking you to give up your time just to talk or anything, but I mean a simple "Hi" seems fair right? You're slipping away and I can't seem to catch you. I'm not trying to sound clingy. God this sounds cheesy, but I don't care. I just hope we get to talk soon. Like a real 1 on 1 talk. No one around to bug us. No distractions. NO TEXTING. Just talking. Me and you. That would be nice. Until then, I'll keep trying to catch you, just so I can hold onto you a bit longer.
Guide me through the tunnel
-Cheesy Alvin
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